Giving Up?

Its not that I have anything that important to say anyway? Or that I have any amount of time to write anything that important? I thought when I started this adventure that it would be so much easier to use the computer to put my thoughts on, but I was wrong...I think that it is much harder than it looks.

It is not that I am afraid of writing its just that it isn't the easiest way for me to use because the computer is in the bonus room, which is constantly being used by the rest of the family. Its loud and hard to concentrate..most of the time everyone is in there, I am distracted and things just don't keep my train of thought. I know that it doesn't take anything special to keep up, but I have kept a journal forever...and this I could use as a journal but its not the same thing?

I think until I have a better feel for this...I am going to take a little break from writing here..actually I already have, its been how long since I have written .. since march??? anyway...it just confirms that my skills aren't up to what my expectations of myself are and until I have improved in all the areas I want to it seems pointless for me to keep this up. Everyone here at home keeps laughing at my attemps to use this anyway...maybe its best to stop this now..and learn a little more before I try this again. Thanks for listening to me..going on an on about everything and nothing...

Where have I been?

I know its been since forever since I have blogged! I guess that is what I have been calling this? I have been doing tons of stuff just not this however. I am so bogged down with the every day stuff that I have been mostly shut off from the extra things like this blog( they just don't happen) I am sorry to say? I am trying to catch up now with some of things that I really like to do but its like everything you do, one day at a time.

One of my very best friends called me shortly after the new year with some very bad news. She is one of the most wonderful,strong, dedicated, talented and beautiful women I know and have been privileged to have in my life. She has always been there for me and I really want to be there for her, but she is one of those people that makes it almost impossible for you to do anything for them. Aside from the fact that she lives in Arizona which also makes it harder to be with her, she seems to at least be accepting help from some of the other people in her life, which makes me feel like she is making some improvements. And I know that it is hard on her and she has written to me and told me of her struggling with the whole of it, and that it is as much a trial to her as well. We are keeping in touch as much as possible now, and every time I hear from her so far the news seems to be OK, but so far that is all that they know? And that is how it will be for a time to come. It is a game of patience, and that is something she has to learn, She thinks it is something that God is making her go through for her own good. I don't know if that is why? I 'm not sure if that is the way we are suppose to learn these things. But I do know that God loves us and he is there for us. I want to be there for her and I know that she knows I am ,when she needs me she will call me, and I will come.

IT IS SPRING.....and the weather is great! I love it when the sun is out and the sky is blue not necessarily when it is burning hot, but just nice! I love to be out in the yard, planting flowers and sitting in the swing, reading a book. Or going to the beach sitting out on the sand, and listening to the water and reading a book. It is awesome when the clock moves ahead an hour and we pick up the hour of more light and I love it when we can have light later into the evening. For some reason we seem to get more done. Or at least I do. Bring it On!!!! It won't be long and Summer will be here. I'm not sure I want it to be hot just yet but I sure love sunny California!!!!